Today was a good day for the most part. Slept for about 8 hours last night, can’t say I felt refreshed, but still. Expected a crap day, I really did. There is a ton of snow (ok only a few inches, but people forget how to drive in it). I got up late. Work has been blah.
Plenty of good texts and emails from Alex. Made me smile all day. It felt nice. Had a meeting at work (aka time waster), decorated (more time wasting), free food, and talked to a couple friends. Nothing extraordinary, but a good day.
Don’t get me wrong, I am still fighting all that was undone with #2 after a week with KD, but so far no violence. I am trying to not go back to square one with him. Night before last, he was so frustrated with his homework that he was going to “take a zero” and go to bed.
I am still awake, obviously. Hoping this will clear my mind enough for sleep.
Today was the last day of the 2010-2011 school year. Tonight was the first family movie night that we have had for awhile. It was very nice.
I love my children. I also love them being at school. When they are at home, I never think that I am doing enough for them. I am going to institute an hour to an hour and a half of educational activities every week day this summer. I know that it is not likely to happen every day, but I am going to try. Two teachers sent home stuff to be worked on. One teacher told me what needs to be worked on.
I am excited to spend a nice summer with my family. We are going to be able to put some money away and move into a house that we can all fit into. We just have to find that one landlord that is understanding and will give us a chance.
Here’s to a summer of hope.
This will be a short post because I want to share a wonderful moment with you.
Dinner was done and cleaned up. #4 was in bed. #3 was watching Lion King with my husband and 17 year old nephew. #2 was sitting at the table typing his book report. #1 was across the table working on her diorama book report. I was sitting between #1 & #2 trying to read my homework.
It is not often that my house is this quiet and peaceful. Everyone was doing what they were supposed to. It was very nice. This was one of those wonderful moments that make all the rest worth it!
Today is Friday. To most moms, that means a possibility that they will get at least one day to sleep in. Not at my house. If I don’t make #2 sleep in my room, he will wake up with the sun and wake up #1 & #3. In turn, I get woken up because the waking of #1 & #3 usually consists of someone screaming. To me, Friday also means two days of trying to keep my kids busy, without spending money.
Who cares if it is Friday? I couldn’t tell you the last time my husband and I had a real date. You see, he doesn’t trust anyone to be in our house to babysit and that leaves MIL & FIL. They hardly ever take them all at once. Even for major things like our birthdays and anniversay. This is because they never had a babysitter, we shouldn’t need one. Seriously?!? My marriage isn’t perfect and sometimes I jsut need to work on it! I guess it doesn’t really matter, I wouldn’t have the money to go out even if she did take them. I don’t know how, but when I finish losing this weight, I will be going out. Dressing up, dinner, drinks, my husband, and some friends (not that we really have any, but that is a whole different post…)!
I should be doing homework. Instead, I am waiting for my husband to get out of bed so that we can go to a couple of garage sales before we have to re-enroll our children for school next year. Oh, and I need to write our paychecks and do the personal checkbook. Should also do the laundry that is piling up because my energy and motivation seem to have taken a vacation without me. I really wish they would quit that!!
Just when I thought business was going to pick up, it started snowing two days in a row. Wow. I don’t know what I did to piss off Mother Nature, but I’m sorry!
On the bright side, I gave four estimated today and have a job booked for next week. It’s a start. Now, I just need to get a truck and trailer so I don’t have to use the minivan anymore.
There is my little tangent on the weather. Now, back to life. I don’t mean to complain because I know we all have problems and mine could be worse. However, just because we all have them and they aren’t as bad as they could be, doesn’t mean I have to pretend they don’t exist. I am a mom, wife, daughter, student, friend, granddaughter, daughter-in-law, business owner, neighbor, you get the point.
Sometimes, I just want to complain because sometimes it makes me feel better to get it all out. I don’t want anyone to think I’m not grateful that my problems aren’t worse. I don’t want any advice. I just want to get it all out. That is my version of stress management.
Speaking of stress management…my eating has gotten out of control again. That would be fine if I would exercise to make up for it, but I just don’t feel like it. I haven’t felt like I’ve gotten near enough sleep lately and I just want to eat. I need to get my motivation back so that I cam get back into my goal dress. The dress actually seems to taunt me. My husband thought it might help keep me motivated if it was hanging in our kitchen. So there it hangs in the corner. Laughing at me.
I apologize to you for the lack of order and possibly coherency tonight. I have just been writing what comes to my mind. Like the fact that this week seems to have escaped me completely. I have three chapters I need to read and take notes on before 8 am Saturday, in addition to study guide questions. I am way behind on laundry and I exercised once this week.
My daughter has a 9 am appointment tomorrow and then I am home. Doing laundry and homework. The children will probably watch a movie or two. I will also make them nap for a few. Oh I will definitely be making them work on practice work because they cannot afford to completely take the week off.
Well, I better go to bed so that I am not completely wiped tomorrow. Good night!