Another great day with my kids. We went to the county aquatic center and the lake. Met friends at both places. Hopefully, I got them enough outside time to last them if KD doesn’t take them out much this week. Did not even really have too many problems with #2, it was nice.
Alex is “gone” again. I don’t understand. At the beginning of last week he looked at me and asked if I stopped telling him I love him because I get mad when he doesn’t say it back. I told him that I don’t get mad, it just hurts. You can only tell someone you love them so many times without a response before you stop saying it because it hurts too much. Then, he started telling me again. I thought everything was fine. Now, I tell him and I get a smiley face text back, or worse, no response at all. Tonight, I texted him
and he responded
So, I did what I do, I sent him this
and then took a shower to get ready because
Tomorrow starts another week for Alex and I to spend time together. We are supposed to go to dinner with some of his friends from work. I might even finally get on his motorcycle.
Alex, when you read this, please remember that you have told me all about your past and I am still here. You know all about mine too. I have been more honest with you than I have with pretty much anyone else in my life, except maybe BFF. Please don’t make me regret it. I love you and I am willing to try if you are. Obviously I think you are worth it, or I wouldn’t still be here.