Last night was a little better, but it still was tense. Hubby had dinner mostly made when I got off work, but I surely was not wanting to cuddle up to him.
Then, he got mad at me because I was trying to go to bed at 8:19 last night. So what? I have been exhausted, but that does not matter because he is like that everyday. I am tired of feeling guilty because I can sleep. It is not my fault that he cannot sleep. What am I supposed to do about it?
What I really need to do is call the doctor about taking a depression test. I am sure that is part of my problem. I am sure that is part of Hubby’s problem too.
I have decided that I am going to back to pretending everything is okay. It is so much easier. CC does not want to hear about it. Alex has enough issues of his own. So, I just need to pretend its all okay.